There are pivotal moments in one’s Yoga practice that we remember for decades. I had one of those this week. I awoke with wisdom. For months my body had been asking me subtly for kindness. For months, I ignored. My mind justified and in all of that, I denied the wisdom of this amazing body that I was gifted to walk in the world with. Like most awareness in Yoga and meditation, we become aware of the easier things first, then the strength of the container develops and the good stuff starts coming. For me, daily meditation has strengthened the witness so much that the mind no longer says, “Yeah, but…”
Every day, I work with clients in pain, clients with chronic medical conditions and weekly, I teach an Adaptive Yoga Class for clients with Spinal Cord Injury. The ways the mind begins to deny the injured parts of our body is profound. From the moment we hurt our back seriously, we begin dragging ourselves around the bed having lost all sense of grounding, we literally feel like an upper body only! There’s a disconnect, an injury to the mind/body connection. In the same way, I get a new knee and the body doesn’t even recognize it (rejection). This extreme rejection doesn’t happen to everyone, but what if we could ask the body if it would be OK to bring in something that we honestly believe will help us? What if we took the time preoperatively to walk the body through what was going to happen. These are the micro traumas.This we can do for every medical procedure that we are able to prepare for, but what about the sudden and profound life changing physical and emotional traumas, like amputation, PTSD, Traumatic Brain injury, Spinal Cord Injury and stroke? We certainly wouldn’t ask the body, “Hey Body. Would it be OK if we got in a car accident today and we lost the use of our arms and legs.” In cases of deep physical and emotional trauma, there IS no time to prepare. We even define trauma using terms such as “sudden” and “unexpected.”
So HOW do we even begin to listen to the body again? The body wants you back. The body wants you to notice and to accept the injured parts and the ignored parts as much as you welcome the parts you love. It asks-subtly at first and then not so subtly, in the form of pain and dis-ease.
The body grounds in present moment so I like to use the elements to help me get there. That’s our opening centering in practice, right? Come into the room. Come to this safe space. Feel the EARTH. Feel the temperature of the floor, the texture under you sit bones. Notice everything about the earth under you. When the mind wanders away to stories about your body that aren’t true, just come back to what is..This floor and everything about it.
Allow some gentle movements that flow in and out like water. Our kryas in Yoga are like this. This is easier for the body than holding. Maybe there is some circling around the sit bones, some easy cat/cow movements. Connect to the sensation of the WATER element of the body. The blood that moves, the lymph, your tears, the way your well hydrated brain floats on the buoyancy of water inside your skull. Allow the warmups to flow like water. Note the places of resistance in both the body as well as the mind and without judging, without story, return to the sensation of water. Return to the buoyancy of that.
I move then into longer holds in my warm ups and if I’m really hurting, these are not difficult postures, but the holds are by nature raising agni (FIRE). Maybe you’ve already identified what asana brings the most fire for you, mind and body. It’s usually the one you hate and the one you avoid, but if you really like fire and pain, you might also dive into that shape without warming the body at all (“I have 10 minutes for Yoga today so lets just dive right into pigeon.”). Did you ask the body if diving into pain would be OK? Quiet the clock. Quiet the mind and listen to what the body is asking for. We meet challenges off the mat every day so challenge on the mat is helping us with that too. If we always avoid that fire, if we always check out the minute fire shows up, just notice that too. In what ways does that show up off the mat too? In the forest fire, there are those that run in and save and there are those who flee. Playing with fire in your practice helps us see where we fall in that spectrum. Lean into the fire of your practice. There is great wisdom there.
The practice then slows, the water and flow come back in to put out the fire. In the meat of my practice I am alternating holds and flow, Fire and water. If my practice is all water, I might lull myself to sleep. If it’s all fire, I might internally combust! Balance the practice.
If you’ve ever seen a forest after the fire has moved through, there is a silence that cannot be described. These are your restorative postures, where the only awareness is breath (AIR/WIND). The forward folds remove the air from the body, the twists detoxify until we sit in that desolate forest with presence. In the ash we return to the earth.
As I move into meditation, the wisdom can now arrive. I welcome it. It is there that I see clearly. The trees are all gone. It can feel like there is nothing and yet everything at the same time. That place before savasana is vital to our practice. I am sitting in it. I haven’t gone to sleep. In chronic medical conditions and pain, I will often use a gratitude meditation practice. “I’m grateful for…” on inhalation and on soft exhalation I say inside the person or thing I am grateful for. As this moves deeper, we see the list is endless, tears may cleanse so we see everything we couldn’t see before. We are grateful for this amazing container that is our body and all the ways it speaks to us. Listen in meditation. Without any effort, in time, the body will speak. You will learn to trust that voice of truth rather than the lies of the mind. In time and without any effort something that no longer serves the health and wellness of your body will leave…because you listened and you acted from THAT place. In the forest, the first green shoot emerges after the fire and the rains, and the forest is renewed, more beautiful than ever.
“Solitude is the soil in which genius is planted, creativity grows, and legends bloom; faith in oneself is the rain that cultivates a hero to endure the storm, and bare the genesis of a new world, a new forest.”
I’m fascinated by cultures where heavy loads are carried effortlessly by the crown of the head, by a well aligned crown. Like the ancient Egyptian water carriers, these loads can be carried for miles in this manner. The typical westerner, sitting at a desk or in their car most of the day, bent over their electronics, might even think this would be a terrible practice for the neck and shoulders. I disagree.
The common postural dysfunction in our culture is not only forward head and shoulders, but habitually flexed hips! Remember my recent post on Lower Crossed Syndrome? https://wordpress.com/post/60000531/911/
If I want to find ease in opening the chest and shoulders that is sustainable and authentic, I will have to soften and open the guarding belly as well as the anterior hips. Through working with the low belly and hips, we create a balanced and stable base upon which the upper body balances beautifully.Your hamstrings will thank you as they will no longer have to fight to hold your pelvis upright.
The upper body is not independent of the lower body! There is an interdependence of the whole of you! Because of that, finding my way to Supta Virasana is a gentle process of opening that can easily take 15 minutes.
It’s the postural antithesis to how we are positioned most of the day. Without that ease, you can understand why it is one of the most avoided asanas in Yoga and why people hurt themselves attempting this without adequate time and intention. People come up with all kinds of reasons to avoid it. ” My knees don’t do that.” ” It hurts my back”. Here’s how Supta Virasana can become your best friend. Allow 15 minutes.
1. Center Yourself for 5 minutes:
2. The open back chair is your friend. As you position yourself, you are gently lifting the lower ribs onto the blanket so when the hips ease into the block you are sitting on, there is some traction instead of compression. Heels UP. Tops of feet press into the floor. 2 minutes.
3. Counter pose after each variation. This is vital to the prevention of injury. In Prasarita Padottanasana, I can position a block or 2 for my elbows to reach into. I’m spinning my thighs to the wall behind me and the feet are parallel to the short edges of my mat. Spine is long. 30 seconds
4. Progression #2: Use all props and deepen slowly. Be sure to strap the knees together. This adds boundary and safety to the shape, reducing any resistance in the body. With each deepening, if the shape doesn’t feel restorative, the variation is too deep for you at this time.
5. Counter pose again for 30sec.(same as #3)
6. Progression #3: My hips are no longer on a block. I have moved the calf flesh away from behind my knees and I have secured a block between my thighs with the strap so my inner thighs can spiral down toward the ground. The heels remain UP. This wider leg variation gives greater space at the sacroiliac joints. Stay 2 minutes with your ujayi breath, switching the hold on the elbows after 1 minute.
7. Counterpose again 30 sec. (same as #3 or deeper)
8. Twist with props: Inhale to elongate the spine first and exhale keeping that length into the twist. 30 seconds on each side.
9. Restore: 5 minutes
The effect is well worth the time spent mindfully exploring Supta Virasana. By opening the psoas, rectus femoris and the low belly in this way, we are creating a balanced pelvis. This naturally brings ease and balance not only to the upper body and neck, but this more balanced position of the pelvis creates a spacious, natural position of the femoral head in the acetabulum (hip socket) thus reducing anterior shearing caused by tightness in the iliopsoas. These backward bends are invigorating and deliver a beautiful feeling of bliss and well being when done slowly and mindfully. There really IS a comfortable and safe Supta Virasana for you, your knees and your back.
I was born with boxing gloves. An early baby and a sick baby in the early 1960s meant I fought alone in a tiny chamber of isolation. Such were the times. I was 10 days old when my parents finally got to hold me. They brought me home to a full house where competing for time, food and attention became lesson #2. I was glad to have the boxing gloves.
Perfectionism ruled in my chamber of isolation. It wasn’t until my body started to rebel at the age of 49 that I began a 21 day experiment with Yoga. I liked practicing Ashtanga and vigorous Power Vinyasa in my bigger chamber of isolation (home) because I could allow myself to let go, to fall over, to practice. I tried to like class, but I was aware of my desire to excel. I enjoyed the challenge of advanced asana and was drawn only to classes where I could practice in the most advanced way in the most intense heat.My first experience with Gentle Yoga came as part of my 200 hour Teacher Training. I heard the long exhales and audible sighs of my fellow students and I wanted to punch them. Seriously. Did I hear someone moaning? Nothing made me want my boxing gloves more than Gentle Yoga. As someone who could spend 10 minutes in plank, THIS was torture! I would describe the silence like the deafening sound of fingernails on a chalkboard and the feeling it evoked in me was anger. I wondered when we would get back to the “real yoga.” I wondered who would ever sign up for this type of Yoga. I
wondered why I was unable to enjoy this type of Yoga. I secretly wished I could feel what a sigh felt like. I wanted to run. I wasn’t good at this. I looked for the door. In order for me to be able to teach this Gentle Yoga, I HAD to practice and I practiced every day. I offered my body and my mind to the experiment. I taught Gentle Yoga to anyone who would let me and in giving myself and my students the gift of Gentle Yoga, I found an ability to relax, to let go and to open to receive the gifts in each posture. I learned to listen to the wisdom of my own body. I learned to nurture myself. I learned I didn’t need to fill the space with anything. In teaching others, I taught myself. The gift of Gentle Yoga is a blessing of the Self. No boxing gloves are required. “To reteach a thing its loveliness” is the nature of metta. Through lovingkindness,
everyone and everything can flower again from within. When we recover
knowledge of our own loveliness and that of others, self-blessing happens
naturally and beautifully.
– Sharon Salzberg
FINDING ALCHEMY IN GENTLE YOGA:
1. Go Easy On Yourself:
Our society’s conditioned idea of moving our body is deluded by calorie burning, productivity, distorted body image, torture. You are learning something new, something out of your comfort zone. You are learning to love yourself from the inside out, rather than the other way around. You deserve every moment of this practice. Meditative and Gentle Yoga time is mind-FULL time. Laziness is mind-LESS time. There is nothing outside of YOU than can do this work for you. There is no pill, no mind altering substance, no amount of sex, no runner’s “high”…nothing outside of you that will bring you to this eventual state of bliss.
2. Let go of Doing:
Let go of analysis (I’m not moving enough. This isn’t exercise), expectation (should I be sighing too?), and outcome of any kind (maybe I’ll lose weight). With every exhale, let go of all of that and inhale where you are, the energy of the people around you, the feeling of the floor under you, the support of your teacher and of all those present.
3. Bring in the natural attraction to happiness:
As an intention for your Gentle Yoga practice it can be helpful to bring to mind something you have done or said that was caring, gentle or kind. Bring in something that you honestly feel was a good action. It could be a time where you were generous or a time where you were fully clear and present for a friend. Take your time and with the memory, allow the happiness to come in. Notice your comfort level with allowing that most intrinsic and fundamental drive toward happiness. Notice how beautiful that is.
4. Every Posture has a Gift. We must be open to the gift if we are to truly receive it. As you begin to flow and move, connect to the places in the body that we receive from as if you were receiving the most beautiful gift of this class. Soften to the incoming
breath. Open the palms and touch the pinky fingers together, hands soft and reaching out to receive. Connect to the ability to receive through the crown of the head and through the back door to the heart (the space between the shoulder blades). As you
inhale, receive the breath through these places. In every posture and with every breath, connect to happiness of your original intention, receive that happiness through these places (palms, crown, heart). Give yourself the time in each posture to fully receive it’s gifts.
5. Stay with the feeling that receiving evokes.
The mind will wander. It will make up stories of things you have to do, places you have to be. It will distract you with promises of Gelato and cake. It will do ANYTHING for you not to feel this. Feel it anyway. Just bring the wandering mind back. Even if you have to do that countless times, know that there is no great skill in bringing back our attention to our original intention (that happy memory of you doing that gentle, caring thing…remember?). Know that you haven’t failed just because the mind wandered. There is no duration of wandering that is impossible to begin again from. Leave the judgement behind and just come on back. We ALL leave the practice many times. Just remember to come back.
6. Gather Your Props for Savasana:
Make your Savasana delicious! Pause to reflect on what your body would most enjoy as it’s final restorative posture. Maybe you work on your feet all day and Viparita Karani (Legs Up the Wall) would feel best. Maybe you want to stay with your open heart space and Salamba Matsyasana (Supported Fish) would feel nice. Bring back your original intention and rest in that feeling.
Gentle Yoga is the ultimate gift to myself. It is also the hardest thing I’ve ever done. I’ve learned to open to receive the gift the teacher has prepared just for me in a group class setting – from a place of truth, sincerity and authenticity. I have received beautiful, kind and gentle assists, well placed props, lavender eye pillows, essential oils applied to my temples, warm towels on my head and the unison of my breath merging with that of my teacher. I sleep well. I eat well. I care about what goes in my body. My blood pressure is lovingly low. My heart rate rests at 54 beats per minute. In befriending myself, I’ve
opened to new and meaningful friendships, I’ve left my tiny chamber of isolation and I’ve opened to a deeper sense of belonging in my family, in my community and in the world. In bringing attention and focus to the feeling of happiness that comes from extending kindness, I’ve learned to extend further in sharing my time and my gifts with not-for profit organizations that serve our community. In being fully present with my clients, constant in the happy times but also in times of struggle, I am aware that they are able to leave their burdens at the door. Most of them forget them on the way out.
I’ve learned to be a bud that chooses to flower. Knowing my days in this state are vulnerable and limited, I open anyway…to LOVE! I couldn’t imagine life in any other state than this. I’ve located a happiness that has transformed me from within. In locating that, I seem to have misplaced my boxing gloves.
stands for all things,
even for those things that don’t flower,
for everything flowers, from within, of
though sometimes it is necessary
to reteach a thing it’s loveliness,
to put a hand on the brow
of the flower,
and retell it in words and in touch,
it is lovely
until it flowers again from within, of self-blessing
– Galaway Kinnel
Sometimes we must abandon everything we know about a particular asana to be open to exploring all aspects of the shape. When I work with clients in Madukasana (Frog), It’s my job to not only teach them the very best safest version, but to also help them understand why this version of Mandukasana is safest for their knees, back and hips.
For a true frog to jump the lengths that it does, it uses it’s legs like springs. You can check out this movement phenomenon here: http://youtu.be/yKpJElwama8. The frog must push the hips back to bring the gluteals to maximum stretch, knees flexed for maximum quadriceps stretch and ankles flexed for maximum stretch to the achilles to load the tendon mechanism for maximum flight at take off. Think of Mandukasana as the moment before take off, rather than a collapsed, lifeless frog.
￼Mandukasana is a deep stretch for the short adductors of the groins/hips (inner hip musculature) and although it is not considered a beginning posture, It can be accessed by all levels of students provided there is adequate warm up and use of props. It is used to create more free space in the hip joints and in this way can be helpful in lower back and knee problems where lack of hip mobility is primary. It can also be used to isolate and strengthen the hard to locate and difficult to strengthen internal rotators of the hips. It is therapeutic for all the abdominal organs and particularly for the pancreas. It is also useful for relieving menstrual cramps. It can be extremely helpful for those suffering from sciatica caused by a tight piriformis. Use caution in Mandukasana in the case of new knee, hip, back or ankle surgery. If the ankle has been fused (triple arthrodesis), you will need to prop the ankle as there won’t be enough dorsiflexion for the foot to come against the wall. A small towel roll is useful for this.
Secret #1: Center Yourself
As with any Yoga Practice, begin with your opening centering and breath work (pranayama). Take this opening work in supported Supta Bhadda Konasana to allow the psoas and groins to soften and let go. In this way you will have a more lasting benefit to the therapeutic posture.
Secret #2: Warm up your hips!
Pick and choose your favorites, but you can use any combination of seated hip circles, hips circles on hands and knees, crawling twist and move gently into kryas (movement flows) that further soften and open the hips like this knee down lunge krya.
Pause between sides in wide leg supported Balasana (Child’s Pose) to feel how you are progressing.
Secret #3: Find a clear wall
Prepare for Mandukasana by folding a blanket or mat to protect your knees and placing
that close to ￼the wall.
Place the bottom of the feet against the wall knees COMFORTABLY wide (remember you will be exploring here awhile).
If your ankles are tight and the feet have a hard time against the wall support them in as much flex as you have available to you. Remember no frog ever jumped with their feet pointed under them. You need the leverage of the wall.
Secret #4: Hips Back!
Soften the groins so the hips empty toward the wall a bit. Think frog about to jump.
Having the hips too far forward can cause the lower back to collapse and put unnecessary strain on the shoulders and low back. In the image below, my hips are too far forward, the knees should come instead to a 90 degree bend, and the low back should not collapse.
Here’s another common mistake: A collapsed frog cannot jump.
Here’s one more common error in Mandukasana: This is a common error when the arms are weak. My elbows are locked in hyperextension and this will bring tension into the neck and shoulders. The lower back is also collapsed here resulting in compression rather than space.
Secret #5: Pull the ribs slightly forward to create space!
Engage enough in the scapular stabilizers! It’s as if you are gently pulling the lower ribs to the wall in front of you. You will be on your elbows. Keep the hips back and the ribs forward so you can fill the space created with breath and Miniature Schnauzer love.
Secret #6: Go exploring!
Notice what it may feel like to isometrically contract the adductors by gently squeezing the knees towards each other in the posture. Now try pulling them apart isometrically (no movement). Stay with what feels better.
On your next inhale, try lifting one ankle off the ground (keep the knee down). Exhale to lower. This will inform you of the strength of your hip internal rotators. Do the same on the other side. Notice any differences. If you can do that without pain, try lifting both ankles (keep the hips back, groins soft). In the image below, I am lifting my left foot only.
To come out: You never want to pop out of Mandukasana too quickly. Take your time! Bring the big toes to touch first and then walk your hands back toward the hips. Take some hip circles on hands and knees or easy windshield wiper legs after Mandukasana.
Balasana (Child’s Pose) knees together
Udarakarshanasana (knee down twist)
Be sure to give yourself a good long hug and an even longer Shavasana to integrate the work done in Mandukasana. executed mindfully, Mandukasana will leave you with spacious hips rather than back pain.
I’m learning something new. When I’m not practicing Yoga, I’m learning to bike with clipless pedals. The first few times I set out with my new clipless pedals, I did fine. The transition was seamless, as if I was always meant to ride this way. I was successful! The Greenway where I bike wasn’t crowded so I never had the direct experience of needing to “unclip” my feet from the pedals so I could stop completely.
Yesterday was different. The obstacles to the ride were everywhere. Traffic was at a standstill on a Sunday. I was still bothered by an early morning message from a friend telling me she was quitting Yoga. As I started my ride, I was examining all the ways we get in our own way, all the ways we get tangled up in ourselves and why we quit things that bring us joy. Just then I wiped out! Forced to unclip from the pedals quickly to avoid crashing into another cyclist, I hadn’t yet learned how to get out quickly and I crashed straight into the mud of my own ignorance.
I sat there with my first thought, “I quit! I didn’t want to ride today anyway. Why am I trying to permanently root my feet to my bike pedals anyway?” I allowed fear and doubt in myself to take hold…and I noticed it! In that moment, I noticed my response to challenge and to stress (“I Quit”). I also noticed right away my ignorance to the fact that my previous smooth sailing would be anything but that on this day. I noticed all the ways my ego tried to make sense of my fall (blame someone else with a healthy dose of judging myself). I noticed my fear of falling, my attachment to outcome (I can make myself good at this) and especially my aversion to those bike clips and my inability to go easy on myself while I’m learning something new. Every Klesha (Ignorance, Ego, Attachment, Aversion and Fear) glistened in my muddy, scraped palms. I saw all of them as I lay there crumpled and tangled in myself.
Thinking about my friend quitting fueled me to get right back on my bike. I remember laughing a bit because a year ago I would have felt embarrassed. I thanked myself for daily Yoga and got right back on my bike just the way I was…muddy, scratched up and vulnerable.
The challenges didn’t stop. The obstacles kept coming. Crowds, children learning to ride for the first time just like me, indecisive pets on long leashes, twigs from the previous day’s storm and my aching knee. This ride required every tool I’ve ever learned in my Yoga practice. I stayed in the moment (unclipping early when approaching a child or a crowd), I felt my place in the whole by being respectful of other riders learning too, of mothers just out for a walk with their new baby and I was nice to the indecisive puppies (more unclipping). I was even nice to my husband, who I had left in the parking lot right before the crash because he was taking so long! I used my breath and I connected to all the reasons I love biking (the wind in my face, moving fast through space, being outside with like minded people and the little girls who like to ride fast, the sound of cicadas). I opened my eyes to where I was. I took it easy on myself. I slowed down. I practiced unclipping and clipping back in many times. I affirmed to myself that I am learning something new! I’m out here! I’m doing it! I did my very best to put a healthy amount of space between what I want (to retain intact hands for my work, success) and the things I do out of ignorance that can entangle me in myself.
If we allow our senses to connect with the kleshas (I hate these clips. I don’t want to learn this. I’m terrible at this. I can’t do this. I’m going to fall. I’m terrified of clips), we rob ourselves of learning something new about ourselves. We stay safe. We live in a small box that will keep getting smaller if we shy away from new experience. The next time you want to quit something, ask yourself why. Write the Kleshas down (Ignorance, Ego, Attachment to desire or results, aversion and fear). You’ll find them like cobwebs, masking the true purity of your soul. You are already confident, compassionate, beautiful, flexible, open and filled with love. You were born that way. The kleshas are just obstacles to the purity of your authentic self. What are you made of? With awareness, can you begin to clear the cobwebs?
In Yoga, we use the breath work, or pranayama to clear out what no longer serves. If you come to a place in your practice and you feel the kleshas getting in the way, back off a bit. Go easy on yourself. Return to the breath work that you know. Notice. One by one, you can send every klesha packing until all that remains is who you always were before they moved in.
I know I’ve got a few kleshas paying for a long term rental. Maybe someday, I will learn to love my clipless pedals. Maybe I’ll decide riding clipless isn’t for me. Regardless, I know I’m not quitting. I’ve got too much to learn. Maybe one day my friend will return to her Yoga too.
Scoliosis (curvature of the spine) can be easy to notice in our clients, but it can be harder to notice the more subtle vertebral malalignments. Our medical system names several types of scoliosis. There are Structural curves, which are true spinal curvatures. They can be further divided into “C” curves (one long lateral curvature) or “S” shaped (2 separate lateral curves-one in the thoracic spine usually and one involving the lumbar spine). There are also functional curvatures, which are compensatory curves in the spine cause by a structural problem somewhere else, say for example, a true longer leg. That longer leg would obviously cause pelvis asymmetry and a compensatory or functional curvature in the spine. There is adult-onset scoliosis and the more common adolescent “idiopathic” scoliosis (implying no known cause). Sometimes there is a physical trauma initially that seems like a non-event. The spine then adapts and grows to compensate for the original dysfunction…at least that’s the theory. All physical theories. That’s our medical system, though. We have a Physical problem, our system is designed to look only for a physical solution. As Physical Therapists, we are trained to only search for and deliver a physical-only solution through physical manipulation of the vertebra, soft tissue techniques, a lift in the shoe on the short side (if appropriate), dry needling muscular trigger points. Osteopaths and Chiropractors will use physical manipulation in a similar way. For the vast majority of clients, there will be only partial effect, if any at all. Why? If we forcefully open closed energetic places in the body, is this really the way to go? What if we could teach the client to open those places as it felt right and safe to do so?
Addressing scoliosis only through the physical lens of manipulation, exercise, bracing and surgery will always only provide partial correction, if any, because this young man pictured above is not just his spine.
You could appreciate from looking at this image that breath excursion of the left lung might also be significantly restricted. The lung is not smaller physically as some might think, but the capacity for breath seems smaller because of the physical compression. With breath restriction, we become not only a smaller container for breath, but also for aliveness. We FEEL small. Confidence diminishes. The spine is designed to be the support system for our entire body. So what happens when we perceive a failure of that support system? I find it interesting also that most of these “idiopathic” curves are discovered during adolescence. This is not only a time where friendships are changing rapidly, but the child is leaving the child body and moving into their future adult body. It is a time where we expose certain aspects of ourselves only to be ridiculed for who we really are..and so because every one of us has been there and has had that direct experience, we can understand what that might feel like inside the body…how we might learn to close off those aspects of ourselves deemed unworthy by our peers. The friends made in elementary school might no longer be around to support us. There are many ways the external support system of our world can suffer. What goes on OUTSIDE the body is also going on INSIDE the body. You could see how a perceived lack of support, diminished breath and “kinks” along the more subtle energetic channels of the body might cause a scoliosis. You could also see how a scoliosis might cause some of those feelings too. We could go 10 rounds over what came first, but wholeness of alignment will need to address all of these areas.
We have 3 main energetic channels (nadis) of the body. If I were explaining this to a 4 year old, I would describe these subtly felt channels as unseen to the naked eye. We have one on the right side of the body called Pingala, one on the left side called Ida and the great central sushumna nadi running up and down the center of the spine.
From the image above you can see that Pingala (shown in red) and Ida (shown in blue) cross the body in several main areas, called Granthis. Other energetic models out there would list these places as Chakras. The Granthis are just the 3 main areas where these energies cross. They are also Chakras.
When I’m working with a client on alignment, there are absolutely physical cues that are a significant part of our practice (hip/knee/ankle alignment, tailbone to crown alignment), but even more important is helping the client to free the breath from the belly. If the client can get breath moving into the belly, aliveness comes and through that aliveness, the client can be taught to direct the energy as if it were aligning and moving through that central, vertical sushumna nadi. True energetic movement through sushumna nadi can take a lifetime of practice, but that doesn’t mean we can’t imagine it happening. If I said nothing to this client, no attempt to “fix” anything and just guided the breath, alignment would begin to happen from the inside out through aligning with the subtle energetic pathways of the body.
As the Yoga Therapist, I am choosing asana (postures) initially that are very grounding. I’m teaching the client to be mindful of sit bones touching, the back of the heart if that is touching, hands, feet, crown of the head. I’m choosing asana that will highlight those places. I’m then layering asana that focus opening where the client might need it (the left side body for our model in the first image) with the understanding that direct opening in the most closed places can leave the client quite vulnerable (joints can feel unstable as a result of too much opening too soon).
I’m bringing in many tools to free the belly in breath (vital for the client who is braced) in combination with visualization of sushmna nadi and bringing in mindfulness to the more subtle energetic channels of the body.
This client’s spine moves exactly as mine does. It flexes. It extends. It side bends and rotates. As long as there is no surgical correction with a rod and wires, there are no contraindications, nothing to avoid. If there has been surgical correction, that might certainly affect my choice of posture, but it’s doesn’t at all effect the breath work (pranayama) and the energetics of the posture. The client might be surgically “fused” with a rod holding them at a 20 degree curve, but they can still feel whole and aligned from the inside.
One of my favorite asana for bringing in all 3 ways to incorporate “alignment” in practice is Yastikasana or Stick pose. If you were to imagine a kinked bicycle chain. I see Yastikasana as a way for the client to remove the kinks through the very shape of the asana, through the breathwork done in this shape and through the firm support of the ground beneath them. The pose translated is “Pencil” and I’ve never seen a malaligned pencil.
In Yastikasana, the palms are pressed together, the inner seam of the legs are pressed together, the feet are flexed with the heels leading away from the body, the fingertips are reaching away from the body and the lower back is being pressed to the floor. All of this is going on while you are BREATHING fully in and out through the nose in 3 parts-belly, ribcage, collarbones. All of this is going on as you are imagining sushumna nadi clearing on exhale and filling with aliveness. Maybe a round or two of Kapalabhati would feel great as well, if the client already knows this breath work. Teaching and exploring bhanda locks can add grounding or distraction, where needed. After release from the posture, ALLOW the release to go wherever it needs to go in order for the client to FEEL the after effects of Yastikasana. If there is rotational dysfunction at the ribcage or tight shoulders limiting the ability for the hands to come together, you will want to prop under the arms so there is support there.
Alignment in all areas of our lives requires mindfulness. If we seek this for our physical bodies, we must first learn to bring breath into the closed spaces, to align with the subtle energetics of the body, and to be mindful OFF the mat of other areas of our lives where we might feel unsupported or out of alignment. Just notice. Without judgement as good or bad, we can just notice the connection. If we notice it, we can begin to change the lie we tell ourselves. As a Yoga Therapist and a Physical Therapist, it is not my job to bring out story. Whole body alignment has very little to do with the wound and everything to do with the thoughts, beliefs and perceived truths around the wound. It has nothing to do with where one places the foot.
Bringing in ways to cultivate the feeling of support from the inside through meditation is also very appropriate. Even if we feel that no one out there is holding us up, we can teach our clients how to create the feeling of support from the inside. Fake it ’til you make it, I say. Draw all the nay-sayers in to your shavasana anyway. Imagine they are all there. Imagine forgiving them. Imagine all of them holding you up. What would it feel like inside to have ALL of that support? What would it look like?
If we learn by contrast, how do we use the concept of duality to help us on the mat and in the world? I’m fascinated by the stories people tell me about themselves. “I can’t do Yoga because I’m just not flexible. I just don’t bend like that.” Is Yoga about flexibility? If we are searching for flexibility, will we find it by stretching? Think about just how inflexible that statement is. Where else might this person be lacking flexibility? As a Yoga Therapist, my job is not to point out where my client isn’t flexible. My job is to show him the places where he IS flexible and how he can use those open places to inform the places that feel less open.
Let’s say I have a really tight hip. Let’s say while I’m warming up in cat/cow circles, I notice it doesn’t move like the other side. Let’s say I start to really connect to the sensation there. Let’s say I decide it’s a really bad sensation, something’s wrong. Maybe I need an MRI? There are a few things that start to happen. The more I connect to the sensation in my hip and the fact that it feels closed, I will either start forcing it to look like the other side (pain) or I retreat from posture or from Yoga altogether (“I can’t do this. I’m not flexible. I’m hurt. I need an MRI.”) I would say between those two places of diving into pain and risking injury and retreating defeated is a beautiful spectrum, a field of exploration so vast, it needs only a meeting point to begin. I’ll meet you there.
“Beyond our ideas of right-doing and wrong-doing,
there is a field. I’ll meet you there.
When the soul lies down in that grass,
the world is too full to talk about.
Ideas, language, even the phrase ‘each other’
doesn’t make sense any more.”
Why doesn’t the hip open when asked? I’ll save the lengthy discussion about biomechanics, diagnostic labels and what is happening in the nervous system for another post, but let’s take a look at how we can cultivate openness ourselves and with our clients on the mat and off. The moment we transition to outcome (I can make this open), we encounter our own resistance and depending on how resistant we might be to our beautiful hip and whatever is being held onto there, that can feel like a brick wall quite literally! The harder we try, the worse it gets! We need a different path to openness, to softness. It’s my job to present all of those pathways and allow you to choose what works.
Open your palm. REALLY open it. There’s a level of opening my palm where I cease to be able to feel the air. Now soften the palm a little as if you were cradling a tiny feather and you had to feel it. THAT’S IT, CHARLIE BROWN! That is the level of opening of the palms to try to cultivate on your mat. We can do the same with the back of the knee. There are certain postures (downward facing dog, wide legged forward fold, standing forward fold) where it would be desirable to bring in some softness to the knees as if they could feel that feather, to reach the tailbone to the sky opening the tops of the hamstrings softly as if reaching for that feather. In the same way as the experiment with the palm, if I lock my knees, I cannot feel. From there, check in and see if you can also soften the palms, the face, the jaw. Maybe you could really soften the belly to the inhale. My point is, there is no proper way to create softness and openness in the body. It’s an exploration. Ultimately and in that moment, it’s your journey to open the places where you can and then notice the effect on the places you thought might never open. You could just start with the place that feels really open. Yes, open the place that already feels amazing!
This past weekend, I had the absolute pleasure of taking a “Roots” class at the Dirty South Yoga Fest held right here in Atlanta. I was so grateful for the exploration. Does this mean that this is the way we do and teach Yoga now? Of course not, but what it provides is a break from what we think and believe to be absolute truth in Yoga asana instruction. It allows us to go exploring and find the contrast between open and closed. I was amazed at how open my throat felt after opening the tops of the hamstrings. If the experience of opening the pelvis and the chest leaves you with a relaxed jaw, or a level of openness not experienced before, then it’s a keeper. The same experience for a different client can leave them feeling pain in their back, especially if they are new to Yoga and don’t yet have enough experience with reaching in opposition through the crown of the head and opening the chest. Having the duality of traditional instruction and the “Roots” experience, we just have a larger spectrum of exploration available to our clients and to ourselves. ￼
Off the mat, we can learn how to be open in ways that feel comfortable and safe. We can’t just go out there in the world without any boundaries. That could feel extremely vulnerable (in the way a forced open posture would-It’s not real), nor can we go out there with our first impulse to say, “NO” or argue our point (closed). A flexible mind creates a flexible body, flexible arteries, a flexible digestive system and a flexible home. Where can you soften? Notice your posture in the workplace or with your spouse and your children. Is it soft? Is there a level of opening that is forced…or real? Can you bring in the breath in 3 parts? Does that allow you to actively listen to what is being said or to what is really being asked? Can you say, “Yes” sometimes? Off the mat, you can bring in the very same practices of noticing and softening the palms, the backs of the knees, the jaw. You can soften further by wearing softer clothing. Spend some time listening to soft music, painting with soft colors and textures. If you love to cook, bring this creativity back. Garden in soft soil. If you like to write, find a softly bound journal and a pen that has a soft, flowing point. There are many ways to create softness off the mat. Only you can choose a way that you would love. Be flexible! Try something completely new and laugh at your mistakes. You might just create something beautiful…something that moves…something soft. What if you could be strong and open in the same body? Would you still be OK out there? ￼
Know that hardness, inflexibility and feeling closed off are very important. They served a purpose at one time to help you to survive. Maybe if those qualities are no longer serving you, maybe if your arteries are starting to feel that hardness too, you can set a time and a place to meet me right here, somewhere on the vast spectrum of right doing and wrong doing, somewhere between ‘I quit” and your next punishing workout. ￼
These photographs are from my trip to Mykonos, Greece where I located a little softness of my own. If you are practicing Yoga on a hard rock outcropping 60 feet above the rocks and sea, you have to SOFTEN to survive. I would never have known that if I always practiced on a soft mat in my safe place. Allow new experience to be your teacher.